the year almost ends.people comes and goes.have made some friends and foes.been happy and sad at almost the same time.expected things failed just like that.dont know why.less expect some people say.should try more.really?dunno feel certain bout many things still.let wait and see.

shoulda,woulda

its never easy to let go off something that u dear the most. wots the words cud i say?this has been a great year indeed.to have something to look forward to every single day. but this is, seems to me, too good to last.and then when the time comes, i have to let go everything.bla bla bla.still hard for me, though this has happened for the some-only god knows-times.but deep inside i know well that i have to be stronger and "healthier" and -please allow me to say this- insaner.haha.thought that things are better left as they are.let them be remain a mistery even to myself.mebbe god doesnt allow things to happen now.and i'll never know when the better time will come.a friend told me that "so what?" bout everything that happen to me.will i stay like this?or not.that is absolutely my choice.my decision.some things are surely going to happen, its just the matter that u want it to happen now or later.

really should comprehend and accept everything. i really should.thought i would.thought i could.

wHeN tHere'S me And YoU

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was fallingAnd I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

blaaghhh2

got headache.very bad.thinkin bout things.they've been floating in my minds.so sick hfffhh...should've let it go while i could.

gotta comprehend, understand, accept thing as they are?blaaghhh....